Planning a 'new route'

So I have been home from work for about 4 months now. I have had A LOT of time to do thinking. I been a little creative, making paper crafts and cards, I have done some sewing, made a few things so far in my "Don't look too closely" collection :), and tried painting too. I have loved trying new hobbies and learning a lot about myself and what i like and what i am good at, or like even though i am not that good at.

I was recently given the go ahead from the Doc to work out again and start getting fit...getting my shape into shape as TYRA said. I have started pilates again, starting 2 times a week and now 3 times a week. I think getting out and spending some time working on ME is extremely important. I have also been thinking about the food I eat. I have been thinking about what I am putting in my body more and more because soon i will be putting food in my little ones body and I am responsible for what he eats while he can't make those choices on his own.

I am very eager to learn more about 100 mile diets. Not like a diet diet, but eating local. I think first off it is important to support local farms, but also, i am not liking that i have no idea what are in some of my foods or what some of my foods are eating before they end up on my plate. Now I am not saying organic only kind of eating, I just want to see where my meat lives before i cook it up, what it eats and what it's given. I want to know what I am putting in my body.

I am not looking to be anything i am not supposed to be, AKA size 3 or 120lbs. I want to be healthy. When i go to the doctor I don't want him to tell me, you know if you just dropped some pounds. I know how to eat healthy, I have done it before Avery, and i can do it again, but this time i want to focus more on the foods I am eating and what makes them. I want to be a mom who can play with her son and not be too tired, and make sure that I am setting a good example.

I am not setting any real strict goals or anything like that, my main goal is to educate myself and my family on eating well and being the best we can be for ourselves and each other. I hope to stumble on some interesting new things that i can share along the way.

More of my love

Avery 2 mths with his friend Riley 4mths

Grampsy and Avery taking a nap

Papa and Avery hanging out

'Born to Farm' - This was taken for my Grandpa, he is a farmer and had all girls and all girl grandchildren, so Averyis the first boy in MANY years! So he has his born to farm outfit on for his Great Grandpa!

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Well Fall is here and Christmas is on it's way, I am sooo happy that the next holiday is Christmas. I have been enjoying my time with my two boys now that Derek has finished school for the year and is not yet back at work. I love getting up and going out as a little family.

Avery is getting bigger and developing so many new skills. He is soooo well behaved. He hardly cries and has slept through the night for over a month now, Loving that! I just love taking pictures of him, as i am sure those who see my facebook can tell. We are definitely enjoying fall and hanging out and looking forward to the great family and friends gatherings to come!

Love

Love....boy am I in love with these two handsome boys of mine! I have been all over the place the past few weeks with emotions and feelings. I fall in love each morning when i go in and get Avery out of bed and he makes that eye connection with me and recognizes me. I love that he smiles all the time and I just melt when his little lower lips pouts out. I never really thought i could love someone so much. Becoming a mom and coming up on our one year wedding anniversary tomorrow, i also never thought i could love Derek more. He is the best husband. He gets early morning feedings, lets me nap and treats me like a queen. He is so understanding of my craziness, or aleast he fakes it well :) I definitely need to take the time daily to thank God for the blessings he has given me. I tend to be the type that only goes to him when in need, but I know i should praise him more and more. It is a wonderful feeling to know that these strong love feelings i overflow with are not even comparable to how much God loves me and that blows me away. Love is all i need in this life, to love God, my family, my friends and to be loved by God, my family and my friends.

Fall

Finally fall has arrived, and i love it! Cooler nights in the house is one of my favorite things, especially after a long summer of being prego and SO HOT all the time! I welcome the new weather and loving that I can wear pants and closed toed shoes! :)

Avery is sure growing, he is 7 weeks now, wow, that feels like a long time, and it did go by really fast. I am sure i wished a way a few weeks hoping he would figure out his am's and pm's but he is done that quite well and sleeps so good. He is still such a happy baby, and is so fun to spend time with.

We went to Nana's yesterday and took a bunch of fun pictures, and had a good visit with Grampsy too!

Growing baby and family

Dad and Sally got married on Sat 12/09

Avery 4 weeks old, in his new little outfit from Mrs. King

Avery at the wedding in his fancy clothes, he was such a good little boy and slept through the entire ceremony and was so well behaved during the reception.

Avery and his little friend...big friend...Riley.

Smiles, I love smiles...even ones caused by gas

The BEST gift ever!!! The swing, this thing is amazing, he loves it and I thank everyone for it, such a wonderful...helpful...gift! Thanks

We are celebrating Avery's 1 month tomorrow, wow, 1 month already, he is growing so fast. We have been blessed with such a great little guy, he is so happy and so well behaved. I am feeling pretty settled now as a mommy, enjoying spending time with him, watching him learn new things and connecting with him. I still melt when that bottom lip comes out and he cries and also during those moments when you know he is looking at you deep into your eyes and making a connection. What a blessing to have him in our lives.

Our family is growing, we have little Avery and now we have welcomed Sally into our lives as a mother figure and grandmother. We are truly a blessed family and have so much to be thankful.

Little toes

Our sweet little Avery is 2 weeks old today. I am in love with every little bit of him..including his precious little toes. He is such a content little guy, barely cries and loves hanging out on the couch with us and interacting. He is great in the car and great on walks in his amazing stroller....LOVE the stroller we got, a dream to take him out in. He is gaining weight too, up to 8 pounds, he eats tons so that is going to continue i am sure. I love watching him and holding him and all the mommy stuff..(aside from the loosing sleep part :)) and can't wait for all the new things he will learn and do. I am in LOVE!

My little sleepy boy.

It has been just over a week now since he arrived, and so much goes on during that first week.

We are glad to be home and getting into a routine, it feels nice to be out of the hospital after 10 days.

I really can say we are sooooo blessed with this little guy, he is so content all the time. He doesn't cry or fuss much, and if he does, we know he is either hungry or needing a change, he is such a happy little guy.

I never thought i could love Derek more than i did before Avery arrived but seeing him be a daddy makes me fall in love with him all over again and way harder. He is such a good dad, getting up in the night, feeding, changing, i think Derek is better at the diaper changes then me ( especially this morning when i managed to leave the couch covered in pee....oops! ;) )

I have two of the most handsome boys in my life, i am so blessed. I also find it so strange how beautiful i feel. I have my little (maybe not so little hehe) post baby belly and feeling like my body is all out of wack, but i feel so pretty, and content with my body. It just seems like the oddest time to get that feeling back, but it is definitely more than welcome. As for the emotions that were alittle too much during the first few days...those are finally settled, and i am just surrounding myself with positive people, positive things, and it is totally working. Everytime i look in the mirror, i smile, even if i am not happy, that way i see happy, seems to be working. Plus prayer, that has been a huge thing, praying and focusing on God during those lower times and deep breaths.

So much changes so fast, but it is soooo worth it, Avery is the best thing that has happened to us!